I recently wrote an article about the Jason Lanier controversy, and for those unfamiliar, he’s been accused of various nefarious deeds. I put a lot of time into researching and now I’m kind of left questioning my own morals.
I don’t really want to run a website with drama or negativity. Those who’ve met me in real life know I’m the last person you’d consider a social justice warrior, and whenever someone bothers me e.g. they try to mug me, I usually just say something like “that’s not happening buddy”, or I ignore them altogether, and I don’t get too aggressive, lol. Sun Tzu said something to the effect of, if you don’t know your enemy or you don’t fully know yourself, then you should be uncertain. If you know your enemy and you know yourself, then you have nothing to fear. That’s kind of how I feel about bullies / people mugging me / etc. They might come across as threatening but a lot are fairly insecure in one way or another.
For whatever reason, I felt compelled to try help and I genuinely felt that Jason Lanier was the innocent guy when I first heard about everything ~ I don’t feel that way now, obviously.
That said, it’s mentally exhausting to take on the worlds problems. I want my website to offer the odd bit of information for people, in the future. And eventually I think I’d like to travel blog more with it — that was its original intention but my US Visa was denied and I kind of lost my way, I guess.
The theme itself kind of sucks. I’ve been patching it here and there but it’s kind of like putting duck tape on an axe wound — if anyone knows of any good themes, let me know! In some ways, I can see why people to towards sites like square space because they do make things simple. They’re extremely expensive though.
Last year I also have some regrets, such as not buying a keyboard and writing a kind of travel diary. I should have taken more photographs too. That said, it was a bit of a learning experience for me and now I am really excited for next year! I’d go this year, but to be blunt, I cannot afford it.
And on the topic of money… I’m thinking of selling my Zeiss Loxia 21mm f/2.8 lens. It is an incredible lens, so it’s not that I have anything against it. The Sony 16-35mm f/2.8 GM lens I own covers the focal length and aperture. It’s not as nice feeling, the sunstars aren’t as good and its flaring control isn’t as good but I have to be realistic, I think that money could be better spent on a 70-200mm f/2.8 GM lens or even a 100-400mm f/4.5-5.6 GM lens. That way, I’d be able to photograph lots of wildlife.
Lastly, also somewhat related to the Jason Lanier controversy is shooting models. I guess it’s made me think that there are a lot of questionable characters taking photographs of people. I think I’d like to try it more, and I have some friends in Canada who said they’d let me photograph them :). So I’m kind of undecided if I’ll get an 85mm, 135mm, 70-200mm or the 100-400mm. I’ll see how funding goes, I guess. I still have a year to decide, so there’s no rush.
So basically this is a post about nothing really, haha. Just some thoughts running through my head.